Poems

No Gifts from War

The rubber trees in father's plantation are ready to be tapped
The steadfast trees are deeply rooted
Their leaves and trunks dappled by the late-morning sun
The hills thick with dreams and hope
 
Blood of the father and sweat of the sun grew this together
The father's body may be far away but his heart is not
The whole plantation waits for his safe return
So that he can reap the rewards of old age
 
The son's dream lives in the father's dream
The Brave Warrior longs to become The Farmer
In Bannang Sata he dreams of Nongbalamphu
Hoe, spade, machete wait, day and night, for his gun to be set down
 
Back from the battlefield
the house and plantation would be quiet: sunrise, birdsong,
smoke from the fire, water boiling, tea in the pot,
the scent of oleander, the fading smell of gunsmoke
 
Peace - means to seek and create another life
Patrol - an anecdote to recount years later
Duty - your children gathered around ready to listen
Fear - no need for caution any more
 
A modest dream - no desire to be a hero -
unassuming right to the end
His family just wants him back in one piece
The gift left behind after war has ended
 
Hope will never be lost
Despite nightmares it prevails
It's what everyone wants
Everyone caught in the crossfire
 
Hearts won't heal
while the country is a factory weaving flags for coffins
while it manufactures suffering
and digs up hatred while burying suffering
 
Grandfathers: the blameless earth
once again is drenched in blood
The south's new war reverberates with the north-east's memory
Nongbualamphu is shattered by the news
 
A nightmare extinguishes the dream of Bannang Sata
Lost, longed for, exiled
It's the nation's gift, its last reward
to take the farmer from his son forever
 
Such a small dream - and suddenly you're a hero!
A myth created, a dream destroyed
The farmhouse waits in vain for the old man's return
Who destroyed the gift? Who betrayed the promise?